It takes great courage to be vulnerable – to say and do that which is true to you, and not retract it…to admit that although you could do something, you CHOOSE to do another thing. …To choose a path in life rather than leaving it to chance or charging God with the responsibility for making up your mind.
I’ve always had a compulsion with getting it “right.” So fearful of making the wrong decision, I’ve often made no decision. What felt like yes was often my last choice instead of my first. Fearful of what people would think, I diminished the fullness of myself.
Largely, I’ve gotten by rather well on my spiritual favor and resilience (and the prayers of many mothers). I’ve been rather non-committal because I have rarely chosen to do things that inspire my heartfelt commitment. Sometimes I’m lazy, fearful or too busy wondering what “they” think.
I can’t any longer.
The thought occurred to me: “Asha, you are 31 years old now. What if you don’t have another 31 years? What would you do?”
It arrested me. My breath caught in my throat…whose life have I been living? Never mind THAT; what life would be the most accurate representation of who I am RIGHT NOW?
One of my favorite writers, Paulo Coelho says:
Everyday God gives us the sun, and also the moment in which we have the ability to change everything that makes us unhappy. Our magic moment helps us to change and sends us off in search of our dreams.
I’ve allowed many magic moments to pass me by. I can only count it a blessing that I have another one – one with which I am now ready to soar.