Day 26: Presence

Presence is being with (giving undivided attention, availing oneself) to all that is.

Since starting this practice of Ho’oponopono, I’ve experienced a carousel of emotions – some connected to vivid, evocative daydreams, others simply washing through with disarming visceral effects. 

Sadness…angst…curiosity…pensiveness…anger…hope…fatigue…

They’ve come and gone, often melting into one another becoming an indescribable iridescent cocktail of emotions at any given point in time.

I am learning not only to be with my flaws, but also to be with my needs. Needs, for me, are the other half of the self-acceptance coin I’ve avoided like the plague — fearing that acknowledging a need was admitting a weakness.

Today, I take liberty to share them here…now:

I need love. I need security. I need consistency. I need attention. I need beauty. I need willingness. I need companionship. I need inspiration…I need presence.

Without quick fixes or distractions, neither excuse nor explanation, they all just simply are in my I am-ness.

I accept this.

It’s a steady commitment to be with even when (ESPECIALLY WHEN) I don’t understand, or always know how. I just breathe, and listen to the silence.

Maybe I spontaneously hum until even my voice kneels, surrendering sound but keeping its intent. 

I’m sorry…Please forgive me…Thank you…I love you.

I sing to them, seeing their faces. I keep on singing until their faces become my own.

And I believe all IS well, and so it is.

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